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Assalammualaikum.

Weakness.

I have my own weakness. I am not confident in myself, always afraid of future and past, have uninvited sickness, have bad habits and many more. But I try to handle it. I try by getting involved in many activities that I shouldn’t and cant face it. But as I believe that mind set is the king of our confident, I try mind setting it. I get involved in sports although I have asthma and lack of red blood cell (I forgot its name) that can make me easily tired and always bergantung with medicine that make my body sakit. I get involved in persatuan that make me as their president although I has least confident infront of people. But I manage to handle it. Step by step. Although the beginning I fail, but now I can feel that it has been handled. There’s no one in this earth is perfect. Including me nor you. Everyone has their own weakness. Whether they choose to hid it or handle it. Who handle it is the smarter, but who hid it is the dumber. So this is my advice, if you don’t like it, do handle your weakness. By that, you can be more confident and grateful in your life. If you fail, stand back. Do it again. In shaa allah Allah will help you handle it. Jangan lupa term ni, “Setiap apa yang kita buat hanyalah untuk allah” dan “Mind set itu adalah kunci kepada diri kita. Yang berkenaan mind set tu mesti tak jelas kan kenapa. Haha. Meh I terangkan sedikit before I end this post. For me, kelemahan tu datang bila kita set kan dalam mind kita bahawa kita tak boleh buat sesuatu perkara. Jadi, bila kita nak handle our weakness, we should mind setting back our mind that we can do those things. And with Allah’s permission, in shaa allah we can handle it. Faham tak term ni ? Hahahaha. Kalau tak faham juga boleh lah bertanya ya. In shaa allah I will jelaskan lebih lanjut berkenaan mind set tu.

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Assalammualaikum,

Luahan perasaan ke mengumpat ?

For me, mengumpat/Ghibah is something kinda like a conversation or activity about someone at their back. Bad or Good ? Opkos lah bad thing.  Kalau guna pak cik google, we can find variety maksud mengumpat ni. Dari Wikipedia lah blogspot lah macam macam ada. Semua ada smartphone or any gajet that has internet kan ? Cuba try google. Hahaha. Pak cik google ada bagitahu salah satu maklumat yang dia ada. Dia cakap ada segelintir mengumpat yang dibenarkan di dalam islam. Kebanyakannya adalah untuk mendapatkan keadilan atau menjadikan tauladan. Tapi bagaimana pula kalau kita cakap something berkenaan seseorang itu but not for membela diri nor menjadikan tauladan ? It more like luahan ketidakpuashatian tentang seseorang ? Kalau dah berbicara berkenaan ketidakpuashatian opkos lah kandungan dia talk about keburukan someone tu. Perkara ni dikategorikan sebagai mengumpat juga ke ? Kalau mengadu tu pula macam mana ? Eh jap. Mengadu dengan luahan perasaan tu sama je kan ? Hahahaha. Why im asking this ? Because in our country or maybe our world nowdays has talk about people without rasa bersalah and when the pendengar tu said “Ish kita dah mengumpat orang lah Astarghfirulahhalazim” then the pentukang cerita tu will say “Eh mana ada mengumpat. Ni luahan perasaan lah. Aku tak puas hati” or “Aku nak mengadu je bukan mengumpat”. I think almost everybody pernah buat or lalui benda ni kan ? Aku pun pernah laluinya that’s why im asking is this kind of conversation dikategorikan sebagai mengumpat ? Sebab bila kita mengumpat kan kita dapat dosa. Dan if I not mistaken (kalau salah sila betulkan), Antara sumbangan dosa yang mengalakkan manusia masuk neraka ialah dosa mengumpat. Yelah kita kan bila dah bercakap tu tak ingat dosa pahala. We can fluently talk about someone one by one. Daripada satu cerita tetiba jadi banyak cerita. Daripada pasal seorang terus jadi berorang orang. Bertambah tambah lah dosa kita kan ? So aku risau. Im afraid. Siapa je nak masuk neraka kan ? Want to change. It hard. But at least I can try kan ? Jom sama sama hindarkan diri daripada perlakuan tak matang ni J

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Assalammualaikum.

Trust.
Hey ya'all. Are you in pink ? I just done my 3rd test paper for today. Sigh. Stress gila. Kan lah setiap kertas ada je salah jawab. Free free je buang markah. But that my fault. Siapa suruh study last minute kan. Whatever it is, masa tak boleh diundur kecuali dengan izin Allah. Okay now I want to talk little little about trust. Truthly, meanly, currently and so on ly - I cant trust people. I don't like to trust people. I don't want to trust people. I just hate in trusting people. Why ? Because they're the one who shaped me like this - by not trusting people. They waste my trust, they're the one yang menghampakan me. I try to trust people but hm. Harapan, angan-angan, cita-cita dan mimpi je. Semua sama je. Padahal benda senang je pun tak boleh buat ni kan nak bagi benda besar. Macam mana nak trust orang kalau macam tu ? And I don't trust people because I don't trust myself. How can I trust people while I can't trust myself ? My own self ! But yeah. Sometime trust is needed in some situation, relationship, work. So I think I must work harder in trusting people and make people trust me. Trust is like a expensive diamond. Once you break it the shape will decreasing and usually be ugly.

Maybe because of this I hard to get close friend kot.

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Assalammualaikum.

Its all about respect.
Usually the younger has to respect the older. Tu kebiasaannya kan ? But is this mean that the older dont have to respect the younger ? Get what I mean ? Hahaha. The answer is NO. Dalam Islam pun ada cakap kita kena hormat menghormati sesama manusia. Respect is needed by everyone and everyone deserve it. But nowdays, I can see that some of the older tak faham dengan benda ni. Kebanyakan rasa that they dont really have to respect the younger. They think every single thing that they do is always right. And when the younger give some advice that say it wrong they will eventually get angry. Patut ke ? Hmm. Same as the older, the younger has feeling too. They also need some respect. Sometime we need some advice on what we are doing no matter it from whom. Neither the older nor the younger. We have to hear and accept it all if that the advice that can menyedarkan diri kita tentang kesalahan kita dan kita boleh perbaikinya. The younger too. jangan asik memberontak je kerjanya. In life kita kena seimbang. Jangan terlalu ikut sangat tetapi jangan tak dengar langsung. With that in shaa allah we will together be a better person. Saling respect and giving advice. Isnt that great ? Jika rasa entry ni berat sebelah or tak mencapai apa yang ingin disampaikan saya nak minta maaf. Ive try my best on it. Tqvm.

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Assalammualaikum.

On 17 of September 2015.
Majlis malam kemuncak MEKAR by MPP UiTM Kampus Tapah. They invited brass band untuk buat show. It was fantastic and very joyful show that I ever involved. Semua orang tepuk tangan dan terpegun tengok our performance. They respect us. They like us. But it also the last performance for us for this semester. Dalam tak sedar there some people will go far and leave us behind. Ada yang dah habis belajar, Kena pergi pratical, contract dengan UiTM dah tamat, dan ada juga yang menghilang entah kemana. Disetiap pertemuan mesti ada perpisahan kan ? Cuma yang berbezanya adalah kebanyakan pertemuan ada kegembiraan dan kebanyakan perpisahan ada tangisan. But for us, the human being, we need to accept it dengan hati yang terbuka walaupun sebenarnya berat dan susah. Bak kata pepatah, kalau ada jodoh tak kemana. Kalau ada jodoh nanti in shaa allah kita akan dipertemukan semula in future. Semoga ya'all will be fine and successful in your life. Im sorry if I have done any mistake and thank you for the kenangan. Its good to know ya'all. Sila halalkan apa yang saya ambil daripada kamu semua. Hope we can still keep in touch. Do take care of yourself. Jaga hati, jaga iman, jaga hubungan dengan allah dan yang lain.

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Assalammualikum.

Its about amanah.
For me, amanah is the most important and heavy things that exist in our life. In Islam too ada menekankan berkenaan bertapa beratnya amanah ni for human being. Im always afraid when this thing come to me cause I never have 100% confident in it. Im afraid that I will lalai, lupa, and sort of thing that will make me forget about this part once I onto it. But, tujuan kita dicipta dan dihidupkan oleh Allah ni kan ada sebab nya. Selain daripada menjadi hamba yang mengikuti segala suruhan-Nya dan meningalkan semua larangan-Nya, kita juga diperintahkan untuk menjadi khalifah di muka bumi ini. Allah maha adil dan penyanyang. Dia tahu kemampuan kita dan kelemahan kita. Dia takan bagi amanah yang memang anda semua tidak dapat pikul sebagai ujian. Ujian ? Yes. Amanah merupakan salah satu ujian daripada Allah untuk melihat keimanan kita. Dalam dunia ni bukan amanah je jadi ujian tetapi banyak lagi. Antara contoh ujian yang manusia jarang sedar adalah kekayaan, cinta, pergaulan dan banyak lagi. Tak sedar kan ? nikmat pun ujian daripada Allah tau. Bukan hanya bencana je. Dalam takut untuk memikul amanah, kita kadang kadang seperti terpaksa dan rela mengambilnya kerana ia juga merupakan tanggungjawab dan keperluan untuk manusia hidup di muka bumi ini *hanya pendapat. Jika salah sila betulkan* Kalau nak cakap pasal amanah ni panjang. Takut terberi salah fakta. Apa apa pun just nak cakap, once you get amanah do trust in Allah and yourself. Always perform your du'a on it. As example, you can say "Ya allah minta mintalah aku berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat. Semoga aku dapat menjadi pemimpin seperti kekasih-Mu iaitu Nabi Muhammad saw. Kau jauhkan lah diriku daripada sifat sifat yang dikeji seperti sifat sombong, takbur, iri hati, ujub dan lalai. Kau bantulah aku dalam memikul amanah yang engkau berikan. Amin". Dan niatkan di dalam hati semua ni hanya untuk Allah. In shaa allah akan dipermudahkan urusannya.

Try to be a better person.

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Assalammualaikum.

Its about heart.
Heart can be our strongest but sometimes it also can be our weakness. I become alert about heart since I joined a camp called COC. At the camp, there was a sis who had inspired me and advice me about heart. She really lovely. I feel like I want her to teach and membimbing me. But it just a dream. She asked me and the other fellow to take care of our heart, care what had enter our heart. It is because heart is the main organ that control not just our body but its also control our emotion, perception, and the most important is our faith. Rasulullah SAW pernah bersabda, maksudnya ; "Bahawasanya di dalam tubuh badan manusia ada seketul daging. Apabila ia baik, baik pulalah seluruh badan, tetapi apabila ia rosak maka rosak pulalah seluruh badan. Ingatlah ia adalah hati" (Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim). So, do you understand the phrase ? the phrase said that heart is the main for the whole body. If our heart is good, then our heart will be good and vice versa. Ive been practice to control my heart and care what had enter it. At first, its really difficult to handle. But after a non stop try, Ive success lebih kurang 1%. With the 1% tu kan, Ive gain so many nikmat yang tidak terhingga. But, for taking care our of our heart, we need to berterusan. Jangan stop or lalai or else what you has hardly gain, you will loss it dengan mudahnya. Do take this advice cause Ive once loosed it. Ive been so lalai about my heart until I forgot to care what enter and out my heart. On the moment Ive sedar my mistake, I felt like my life is empty, my heart is just fulled with nafsu. Im sad. Im sad because I lalai dan sedar lambat. But I know that its never too late to start it over. Apa yang melalikan aku ? Its is because a man. A peace, noble, cute and handsome man who had make me interested to looked at him. Hahahahahahaha. Sesungguhnya mata itu adalah senjata bahaya yang boleh mencemarkan hati. So now Ive otw to start it over. I am trying to forget about him and pray to Allah "Ya Allah, jika dia adalah jodohku maka kau dekatkanlah kami pada masa yang telah kau tetapkan dan timbulkan lah rasa cinta di dalam diri ini untuknya tetapi jika dia bukan yang ditakdirkan kepadaku maka kau jauhkan lah dirinya daripadaku dan kau hapuskanlah perasaan ku ini". Love. I always think about this thing. How can I married and love a man sedangkan my love dekat Allah and Rasul is not yet 100% ? Hm. Whatever it is, do pray for my success. Amin.

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Assalammualaikum.

Last year, suddenly Ive been drag into brass band for merdeka show. They ask me to be a colour guard girl. At that moment, I dont know why I just follow my senior order without objection. Actually it not an order, but it is an invitation. Alexender Knight Drum Cooperation (AKDC) #kalausistaksalah is the name of brass band that Ive joined. They're under UiTM Sri Iskandar as a club. The leader for this brass band is called Duffy after Radin. My first instructor who teach me steps and rules for colour guard is Radin then followed by Rai and Sir Farish Asnawi. Until now, I just know some basic and some routine for cg. You know what, during traning Ive some bad habit that will annoyed other cg which is ; not sharing my pole with other. Hehehe. Sorry to say but I just dont like to  share my beloved stuff to other. I love to stick with my pole everywhere I go. And I just felt like that I want to seludup my pole to my kolej. Anddddddd I just cant slow motion my step as I too merasai the songs and beat until I lost counting. I should not do that. Sorry guys for troubling and make ya'all annoying with me. So last time I hold, play and hug my pole is during band competition at Shah Alam. My new heavy pole that had been decorated ala ala egypt by Sir Farish is so make me fall in love. But for now, I think that pole will get new master. As AKDC has a new freshie member. I jelly right now cause I have a feeling that I cant join any performance nor competition anymore. I felt like my legacy is gone. I hurt. But right now, I just want to say that I miss my pole, I miss my cg mates, I miss my training time, I miss my beats, I miss Sir, I miss all band mate. Ive to prepare for future. So, dear my lovely Raja, do head up & face your reality. They dont need you anymore. Let the memory stick on you and let your pole go with her new master. Btw, thanks for the memory dear AKDC guys.

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Assalammualaikum.

I want to share something with ya'all.
For this semester in my kolej, Ive been selected for a position in their carta organisasi. The position is really important and almost everyone want this position. Im only lucky to have this big position. Alhamdulilah. Thanks to Allah for giving me this position. I, Raja Nur Hakimah Munirah is currently President of Kolej Alpha. Surprising right ? Haha. Okay that just an intro for this post. Hahaha. So what wrong with this President position ? Okay here it is. Since Ive been a President, people always get dissepointed with me. They always give me dialogue "Yelah, kau kan president mesti busy" or "Kau ni asik busy je. Balik balik meeting" or "Tak apa Raja. Aku tahu kau busy. Kau kan pres" and so on. Bukan nak cakap apa lah tapi that dialogue really merentap hatiku ini. Sentap kot. Terasa. Im sad. Im not the one who apply this position at Borang Permohonan JPK tu. Bukan tak bersyukur. I really thanks to Allah cause give me this oppurtunity untuk merasai perasaan menjadi President. But... Those people... They always decreasing my confident level. I hate it. I hate the feeling. Hahahahahahahahaha. Aku macam nak sound je mereka mereka tu cakap "Kalau aku busy pun kau mati ke ?", "Selama aku jadi pres aku ada ganggu hidup kau ke ?", "Kau tak rasa beban yang aku pikul untuk jawatan ni so do stop judging me". Tolong lah. Aku merayu kepada anda semua. Tolonglah jangan buat aku macam ni. Tolong lah sokong aku. Tegur aku kalau aku ada buat salah. And stop judging me with those 'Ni ke president Alpha ? Macam tak layak je" eyes. President ni bukan tempat untuk jadi popular or gah di mata mahasiswa yang lain. Tapi President ni adalah amanah. Amanah yang diberikan oleh pihak Unit Kolej untuk kemaslahatan student kolej Alpha. Amanah dia besar dan berat. Kalau aku boleh lepaskan jawatan ni kepada orang lain aku dah buat dah. Hal ini demikian kerana, semakin berat amanah tu, nanti di akhirat sana semakin berat kita akan disoal dan disiksa jika kita tidak menjalankan amanah tu dengan sebaik baiknya. Im afraid with god. With azab Allah. Tapi walau macam mana sekalipun, Ive to handle my duty. Amanah dari Allah. Amanah dari orang yang percayakan aku. So abaikan what people say about you. Let them be that way. Diorang tak faham kau. If you fall, not them will help you but Allah. Allah always there by your side. So dont afraid and always pray Allah smooth your urusan. Head up & face it #Pilantakspellingandgrammaraku

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Assalammualaikum.

So hello there. This is my first entry for my new creation blog which named "White is a beautiful colour". Why White ? It is because white is my favorite colour and it give me peace. Actually before "White is a beautiful colour", Ive a lovely blog that really have a long period of time that named "Dear Boogie". But Ive deleted it. And now, Ive create new blog for my rubbish entry. Kihkihkih. So let me introduce about myself. My name is Hakimah Munirah. Currently studying at University Teknologi Mara Perak Kampus Tapah. Ive take course statistics there. I am now almost 19 year old. Suddenly involve in colour-guard and skate-ing. really love outdoor activities. Okay I that all for my intro. Good bye.